I always have these grandiose plans to manage my life in order to be productive, efficient, and satisfied. I give myself pep talks, set goals, get excited about how much I’m going to accomplish and how happy I’ll be with myself after I transform my life. Then I get started…and fizzle out in a sickeningly brief time. And I’m the only person in the world who does this to herself.
No, I’m not talking about the Paleo diet plan, though with my record, that will bite the dust eventually. I’ve actually stuck with that for a solid six days now. Whoo hoo! But I was posting a blog nearly every week day, without fail, reading all the blogs on my blogroll plus others from people who have made comments, building up my readership to an acceptable level, and feeling like I was on a roll. Then, I took a week off to visit my daughter and did no writing at all. And it felt…well, liberating! When I returned, I wrote one blog post before we took off again to visit our other children. Again, I did no writing, and even worse, I did no reading. This time it didn’t feel so liberating. It felt crummy. Even when I tried to get back on schedule, I couldn’t come up with anything to write about. My creativity seemed to have deserted me. And what is even harder to swallow is that I’m the only person on this entire planet to have this problem!
I have no excuse. I get in a cycle of procrastination, and the longer it goes on, the harder it is to break out of the cycle. It’s like I’m in a giant centrifuge, spinning wildly, my face flattened from the force, my body helpless to move. I want someone to grab my arm and pull me away. Have you ever felt like that? Of course not. I’m the only one in existence who is so pathetic.
Okay. Enough of my sniveling. I apologize for abandoning you and pledge to do a better job of using my time wisely. I’m going to make a schedule for reading and writing as well as exercising, cleaning the house, doing the laundry, practicing my music, grocery shopping, and cooking, as well as fitting in my volunteer activities. Oh, no! I just read over this list and I’m getting weak knees already. But I’ve got to try to get my life back on track, because I am the only human being in the universe who has this problem.